Thursday, December 29, 2011

Two different people

We met and we move aways...and we knowsituation will be much much different than it was the moment of the dreams, but its certainly gives us courage and smile to face the world for better tomorrow.

 When we started the journey to come and met on that december evening few years ago, a total stranger, a unknown identitiy, We never knew it will become a unseparatable part of our memory. Today your words, and your thoughts have made me realise i was wrong somewhere for not to tell you what i felt for you.

दूर कुठेतरी
शांत समुद्रकिनारी ...
कुशीत तुझ्या मी
अन गुंफलेले हातात हात...
थोडेसं लाटांसोबत अन
थोडेसं एकमेकांसोबत खेळून ...
मावळत्या सूर्याच्या साक्षीने ...
एकमेकांकडे पाहत
सारया जगाला आज विसरून जावू ...
मिठीत एकमेकांच्या ...
चल ना रे सख्या
आज आपण विरघळून जावू ...

You know, that moment when you kiss someone and everything around you becomes hazy. And the only thing in focus is you and that person. And you realize that that person is the only person that you're supposed to kiss for the rest of your life. And for one moment you get this gift. And you want to laugh and you want to cry because you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that it will go away all at the same time

There is a place You can touch a woman or man That will drive them crazy.and that place is heart, you have made me crazy.. and i am thankful to you for that.. ...I know that some part of you is hesitating for a moment, and if there is a moment of hesitation, then that means you feel something too. All I ask, please, is that you just, you just not dismiss that - and try to dwell in it for just ten seconds.
There isn't another soul on this planet who has ever made me half the person I am when I'm with you, and I would risk this friendship for the chance to take it to the next plateau. Because it is there.. between you and me. You can't deny that. Even if, you know, even if we never talk again after tonight, please know that I'm forever changed because of who you are and what you've meant to me. There is strange words, but they are, It's not like love at first sight really. It's more like...gravity moves. When i see you, suddenly it's not the earth holding me here anymore. you does. And nothing matters more than you. And i would do anything for you, be anything for you.. I become whatever you needs me to be, whether that's a protector, or a friend or  anything else you wish me to be.

I miss you when something really good happens, because you are the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you are the one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry because i know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you most when i lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other; for those were some of the best times of my life .

I tried to convince myself I didn't want you anymore.

I just can't let go.

I don't want to see you move on, but I'm not doing much about it either.

We're two different people and I wish it would stop, because I'm living to die and dieing to live, but it doesnt mean a thing to me, until I have you. I felt so good when I was with you, you made me feel like the world; to hear i was your favorite and the best you ever had. You were not ashamed and would hold my hand anywhere. We'd talk for hours. felt like heaven when I was with you; and now that you're gone im hurting like hell. I miss you so much, and I wish you were here, but I made the wrong choice and its too late, too many mistakes had been made and i lost you, forever -- Honestly, I dont even know wat really happened. When i think abt it, all i remember is that i tried and i tried really hard. But u din seem happy anymore no matter how hard i tried. So i called it quits. All i have ever wanted is ur mesmerizing smile lighting up my life. And i was just not able to feel that. Sorry, if ever i have hurt you. But the only thing that i wish for now is ur happiness. If ever you realize that ur happiness is with me then ur always welcome. I am and i will always be here for u. But even if u happen to find it somewhere else, rest assured I'll be the happiest for u.

એક દી’ એમણે પોતે જાતે કહ્યું,
‘સુનિલ’ આજે જરા મારુ વર્ણન કરો.
મારા વિશે જરા થોડા રૂપક કહો,
થોડી ઉપમાઓનું આજ સર્જન કરો.
કેવી હાલત ભલા થઇ હશે એ સમયે,
એ તો દિલ વાળા જે હોય કલ્પી શકે,
જેણે બાંધ્યો હો રૂપાળો રિશ્તો કદી,
એ જ સમજી શકે, એ જ જાણી શકે.
કોક બીજાની હોતે જો આ માંગણી,
હું’ય દિલ ખોલીને આજ વર્ણન કરત.
આ સભા દાદ દઇને દઇને થાકી જતે,
એવા સાહિત્યનું આજ સર્જન કરત.
પણ પ્રણેતા હો રૂપકના જેઓ ભલા
એ જ રૂપક જો ચાહે તો હું શું કરું ?
જેની પાસેથી ઉપમાઓ તાલીમ લે,
એ જ ઉપમાઓ માંગે તો હું શું કરું ?
તે છતાં મે કહ્યું, મારે કહેવું પડ્યું,
છો રૂપાળા તમે, ખૂબ સારા તમે,
આંખ બહુ મસ્ત છે, ચાલ બહુ ખૂબ છે,
અંગે અંગે છો નખશીખ પ્યારા તમે.
કેવી સીધીને સાદી હતી વાત આ,
કેવા ભોળા હતા તેઓ ઝૂમી ગયા.
બોલ્યા કેવા મજાના છો શાયર તમે,
કેવુ સારું ને મનગમતું બોલી ગયા.

Here, the poem which I put describes the best feeling of the description of beauty. It says, today for the first time you only told me to describe yourself… and said, “Sunil please describe me today, tell me something about my beauty and my creations”… you will never imagine my condition at that time, people who has heart can only understand how much difficult it was to describe the beauty of beauty itself? If it could have someone else, I could have described like no one could have ever listened and everyone around will be surprised to listen…but how can I praise someone who itself is definition of eternal beauty. Looks and charms take training from you, and that person only asks me describe her charm than how can I? Still I had to say, you are too pretty, eyes are beautiful, walk is too elegant, and top to bottom you are definition of beauty.. How simple and straight it was, and how innocent you were… and told me, “Sunil, how good you are, how good you said, it touched straight to heart”

Isn’t is beautiful?? Same situation can arise to me when you will tell me to describe your beauty… I won’t be able to do it as you are an beauty itself….

I guess i can write a full book on the emotions of time we had. I can write a hell lot of big big book on it but in short, it was a lifewhich made me realise that the feeling which i have given you is not in corner of your heart but its all in you. It just that i am fool to not to notice some time.. please forgive me for that..

1 comment:

Rachana shah said...

Koi nu Dil todvani bhul kyare b nahi karvi....Sacho prem ek j var var thay chhe ....ane jyare e vikhray jay chhe tyare vyakti prem karvanu bhuli jay chhe e pure puro tuti jay chhe...and can never stand in life ....koi divas e sachu hasi nathi sakto nathi e potanu jivan Jivi sakto....don't dare to love ever....