Monday, November 19, 2018

Memories....

Memories? What are the memories exactly? 

It was a sunday evening and i happen to say to someone, there is memories and nothing else. They make you or break you.

While dwelling on this i read, 

It's difficult to be hungry cold lonely pained sad and unable to say it

Well is it? 


There are times which happened in past , for example school days - How were they? Do you remember anything that makes you cry? I guess not. Why? I feel while being in school only thing mattered was those small fights and homework and playing. Those things were done purely from heart but no mind. We didn't tried to store those memories in mind but we felt them. And when you just feel them without analyzing them - that's when you are happy content and also making memories those not make you cry but feel that happiness in heart.


Let's think about period after it or for some of people times when you started to analyse along with feeling something - how those memories live? 

I remember an incident from past - A girl purely thinking from heart, talking to her diary and waiting feeling about a boy she felt for. After 5 years, she gave her diary to that boy. What happened? Well first that boy - not in control of his words action and emotions - take it lightly - no heart involved and only mind - and didn't felt what she felt. What was wrong here? As I told many times and I believe in a person is never wrong - situation is. Here in this situation, mind of that boy acted alone while that girl acted with heart and things happened which should not. But after a while, now whenever he reads that diary, he thinks and feels. Time has changed for him but it has moved few years too.


Coming to actions where mind and heart both involved. That is when you create a memory which goes to stay alive in you. Memories i personally feel can't stay alive if you don't have heart who felt it and mind analyzing it. Again a incident i remember from someone  - this guy met a girl and fall for her. They met and spent some happy moments. That guy felt extremely happy and started to think more about her and tried to make her happy content and cheerful. What happened here? Guy felt so much for her and instead of expressing his feeling he clouded himself and thought (from mind) to get her what she desires. These went on and come a time when they distanced. Now these are memories which are written in that person - why? Because he just not felt it, he also used his mind thoughts to store them. When you store your feelings with your mind -boom..You made a memory and those are moments which live in you...Make you or break you. But remember those are memories - and those are moments you felt. And that is beauty of feeling when stored in your mind and felt in your heart.


Finally something I wrote before

It's difficult to be hungry cold lonely pained sad and unable to say it


What is this? This are the expectations. Are expectations bad? No. Definitely not. But then why they feel painful, hurt or occasionally gives us smile. Same thing applies i guess. Expectations are thought first and felt later. Where as beautiful memories i told about before are felt first thought about them later. When we think about something first - it many thing's which play part in them - society,, friends, Showoff's, many more materialistic things too. And then your feeling are dependent on those materialistic things. I can be wrong (and I know I will be) but expectations from mind without feeling them gives nothing but a sad time (not memory)

Enough of unwanted knowledge (gyan) -. But have those feeling felt first...How they translate in memories - well certainly a memory worth having.....